HOLY CANOLEY! Time is flying by.
I don't mean drifting by on soft, flapping wings, either. I mean SHOOTING PAST like a friggin' meteor or a spaceship in Star Wars.
Generally, I've been pretty happy lately. I've made some improvements in my life that I've needed to make for quite a while. I'm eating healthier, I'm exercising on a regular basis, and I'm making an effort to be more social.
While I have my happy moments, I can't seem to make my attitude STAY positive. I seem to be in a continuous cycle where I think, "Come on, Celeste. Let's be happy." So I'm there for a few hours, and before I know it I've slipped into the "self-pity, nobody loves me" mindset. It's MADDENING! (I've always liked that word. It's a great descriptor..)
I think my biggest complaint at the moment is that I feel like everyone I meet misunderstands my personality. I try to be "myself" (whatever that means.. how could I be anything else?) but I always seem to give people the wrong impression. I feel like I'm giving them only what they want to see-- the quirky, sometimes funny, slightly-talented girl. I feel like people look at what I can DO instead of how I THINK.. which I feel is more revealing to my character. I get frustrated when people judge me by my actions without knowing of my intentions. Then again, there's the constant argument that a person does what he/she thinks. I think this is true, too.. so I have conflicting opinions. Maybe the truth is that people really do see me for who I am, and I'm over-thinking things--which is probable.