Feb 25, 2010


HOLY CANOLEY! Time is flying by.
I don't mean drifting by on soft, flapping wings, either. I mean SHOOTING PAST like a friggin' meteor or a spaceship in Star Wars.
Generally, I've been pretty happy lately. I've made some improvements in my life that I've needed to make for quite a while. I'm eating healthier, I'm exercising on a regular basis, and I'm making an effort to be more social.
While I have my happy moments, I can't seem to make my attitude STAY positive. I seem to be in a continuous cycle where I think, "Come on, Celeste. Let's be happy." So I'm there for a few hours, and before I know it I've slipped into the "self-pity, nobody loves me" mindset. It's MADDENING! (I've always liked that word. It's a great descriptor..)
I think my biggest complaint at the moment is that I feel like everyone I meet misunderstands my personality. I try to be "myself" (whatever that means.. how could I be anything else?) but I always seem to give people the wrong impression. I feel like I'm giving them only what they want to see-- the quirky, sometimes funny, slightly-talented girl. I feel like people look at what I can DO instead of how I THINK.. which I feel is more revealing to my character. I get frustrated when people judge me by my actions without knowing of my intentions. Then again, there's the constant argument that a person does what he/she thinks. I think this is true, too.. so I have conflicting opinions. Maybe the truth is that people really do see me for who I am, and I'm over-thinking things--which is probable.

I'm going to look at patterns today for a summer dress. I want it to be really simple. Similar to this one but a higher waist, no bow, and, of course, longer. I'd probably do it in a light blue or light yellow.

When people find out I can sew, they always act surprised. Am I really THAT girl?
Anyway, let me know what you think.


Kristie Lynne said...

I loves the dress and I loves you exactly for who you are and how you think!

Christine Frandsen said...

the dress is great. i'll probably steal it from you- which makes it a winner.

AND I think you're pretty great for coming to visit me last night.

Julie said...

I'm pretty satisfied with you as a human. You always make me feel like a rockstar, and that proves that you have a great mind :0)
And I think it's fantastic that you can sew!

Zannah said...

When you're on project runway, I'll be your biggest fan. That dress will be absolutely ravishing on you.
As for the rest of your post, don't sweat it. Your actions definitely say more than "fun" "quirky" and "ravishing" (i just wanted to use that word again, cuz it's so YOU). Just keep doing what you're doing. ;-)

KHathaway said...

Ummm.....I'm a person you met, and I didn't misunderstand your personality. I understand it just fine, that's why we get along so well. Hahaha :P

Kappyt3 said...

Celeste is awesome. Celeste is cool. Celeste is so super that it makes guys drool.

I think you're worrying too much. Just live!